I was going to take a break today..... Just kind of disappear for a little while, but not "really" disappear. Then I got up this morning and turned the tv on. I caught part of Joel Osteen's sermon on the Lifetime Channel. I had never watched him before, even though my older sister is always asking me if I have.
The past few months have been rough. It started when I found a lump in my breast, which turned out not to be cancer, thank God. But, through all the testing, I had to be tested for a couple more cancers, and some other things. When that was all said and done, I got a clean bill of health for those things, and got sick with a virus. I came back to work and a couple of weeks later, I lost my job! I know, right? Then my unemployment got messed up, leaving me to milk a final paycheck as long as I could. Finally, beaten down and feeling broken and unfixable, I reached out for prayers from family and friends. I am always that one asking for others, but not usually for myself. I had not gotten any hits from the resumes I had sent out, and poor Ryan was starting to become depressed. He generally feeds off my energy. I had been praying and asking for a little help just seemed right. The following afternoon while with Ryan at his eye doctor's appointment I got a call from one of the recruiters. I got a job interview the next morning. That evening I got another call from a firm I had sent my resume to, and they schedule me for an interview tomorrow. Then I interviewed with another recruiter after the Friday interview, and he is working on getting me an interview with another firm. So before I could get out of Tampa, I received another call. This from another firm, and now I have an interview on Tuesday! Talk about prayers being answered! I feel so blessed. I know now that the Lord will not let me down. This turn has also made Ryan perk up a little bit. I am believing too that the Lord will provide the gas to get to these interviews. Either way......I feel it in my soul that I will have a job befor this next week is over!!
Having written that little book, it brings me back to this Joel Osteen sermon I watched this morning. He was talking about showing kindness. Showing kindness even when you're sick, don't have money, or anything like that. To ask God how you be a blessing to someone. So I immediately thought about a conversation my Ryan and I had one time. I had a headache and had not been feeling well. A family member asked for help with something. I downed some headache medicine, put on my happy face and went to help. Ryan had asked me why I always do that. He was abrupt and not happy that I was going to help. I told him that it's important to help others. I said, I don't have money to help people, but if there is something else I can do to help others I will. I told him that acts of kindness is important. That maybe one day the Lord would bless me. I said, I don't expect anything in return. I told him that Granny and Papa had always helped people, and other family members had. I don't really think Ryan was getting my point. So this afternoon I tried to explain the sermon I had watched, and all about the kindness. That if you show kindness it will come back to you in a good way. It may not happen today or tomorrow, but it will one day. It may even be when you get to heaven. I told him that I would continue on this path. He did not argue with me or question it anymore. He just shook his head. I think Ryan and I will be okay. The bigger and better things will come one day. Yep.....the best is yet to come!
Peace!
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